Re: The Post About Today Topic All right guys here's where I gotta cry and you gotta listen
This afternoon was disaster after disaster
First, I was home all alone for five hours because my sisters were at cheerleading. Then I found out that I will be alone during the day most of next weekend including my Monday dayoff
Then I knew I had to go to the dentist tomorrow afternoon and I knew I had my Honor Roll celebration tomorrow afternoon, but I didn't put it together that I'd have to miss the Honor Roll to fix my braces
I'm sorry guys but all this is killing me. I know it sounds easy but it all fell on me at once and I'm depressed from it
--- mvs on SasukeManiac Forums if you were curious
Wipeout4321 on Restaurant and Bakery forums but I'm inactive on those now
Re: The Post About Today Topic Don't be sorry, I know how stuff like that can get you down.
Something I've found recently, when your home alone make sure you have something to listen to like the radio. Not just music but talking too. That keeps your brain a bit more focused on what it being spoken about and a bit less likely to be thinking negative stuff. It's like a little bit of company too.
Radio seems to be better than TV or watching videos online as you can do something else while listening - so double the stuff to keep your brain busy. Try it out
Re: The Post About Today Topic I'm glad you're feeling a bit better
I've not said because there are people all over the internet writing about having "depression", and I didn't want it to sound like I was looking for sympathy, but I got the lowest I've ever been a month or so ago. Really bad. Thanks to my shitty job, being treated like crap at work and by my so-called friends.
I know I've had depression for as long as I can remember, but I finally went to the doctors about it after that horrible weekend, and she gave me a note for a week off work, and I also got tablets and referred to counselling. I still couldn't go back to work the next week so I went back and she give me another two weeks off.
Seems like I'm on tablets for a while yet, but the thing that helps more than anything is trying to change the way your brain works. To put it simply - whenever you start thinking something bad, or going over stuff in your head you need to realise and try and stop it straight away. Just think of something else, anything that isn't bad. It's very hard to do, but the more and more you stop yourself that little bit easier it gets.
I'm having to do something they call CBT through an app and talking to a counsellor on the phone (got another appointment tomorrow morning, trying not to stress out about it). I finally went back to work last Monday after three weeks off.
The more I find how to cope and make myself feel better the more I'll share if you, or anyone, needs it.
So far: stop going over stuff in your head as much as possible (the hardest thing), keep your brain busy (as I said before, I've found the radio helps a lot), try to do something a little bit physical (say if you're sitting down feeling bad, get up and do something like jogging on the spot, run up the stairs, dance if there's no one around ) as getting your heart going a little bit helps your mood.
Re: The Post About Today Topic Depression sucks. I had it bad in school to the point that I needed to go to counselling twice a week, later down to once. I ended up being a poster boy for the school's counselling service. My form class were told something along the lines of 'you know Robert, right? He goes twice a week. He's not gonna throw himself out that window. You don't have to be suicidal to have problems.'
I'm not sure about the radio, though. I can't see how I'll be able to have radio running near me since they'll always cut to the news every few minutes, and the news is so depressing for the forseeable future.
Illness has laid me low for about a month now. A cold this week hit me and my sister, and she had to stay off work, and we had to cancel going out with our friends on Saturday.
Re: The Post About Today Topic We never had a counsellor at school, or anything like that. But then my school was useless at everything, so no surprise there. Although, to be honest, even if we did I wouldn't have gone.
The radio is just something I've personally found to help. Although I listen to Arirang where the same hosts are on every day, and it's so easy to chat to them, so they feel more like people you know than some distant randomer on the radio. Also people from all over the world write in so you learn a lot about different countries and it can be pretty interesting.
Jae Min (who I mentioned the other day when he said he was going to send me a card ) often gives advice on how to cope with worry and feeling down as he has suffered from depression himself. That's why I sent in a message the other week to thank him as some things he's said have genuinely helped me a lot. I would share that if I could find a way to get the recording out of the app. Suppose I could just record it through a microphone...
Re: The Post About Today Topic Here we go, I recorded it. It was Lunar (Chinese) New Year they asked for messages about "Me in 2016 vs me in 2017". This is my message to Jae and his really kind, long reply.
And while I was a it, I've uploaded the bit from last week when he was asking whose autograph you want, and I said his
I didn't get to record the bit later on where he said he'll send me a happy spring card haha.